Thursday, October 31, 2013

Ending October

All I knew is Alesso and Calvin Harris' Under Control is definitely the song of the month.

You gain some, you lose some is the most realistic quote ever.

My days has been nothing but BuzzFeed and relentless case of studying slash working out slash replying chats.

I've decided to focus on one thing more than the other...

But I definitely know that this month was awesome!

My dreams have grown into being featured in Kompas Sosialita to speaking in front of an audience in TED.

I have promised myself (and some other parties) that I will THIN myself out!

And Brina! Here's a reminder that...
a. You're turning 18 in six months. SIX MONTHS.
a.a. Feeling old already? YOU'RE NOT.
b. UN is only five months away.
c. So is that particular appliance test that you're dying to get your hands on.
d. But in the other hand, christmas is approaching in two months.
e. New Years Eve in two too.
f. Please don't give up in training those super awesome abs... You know (and he knows) that you hate the punishment.
g. Start looking around about infos on TOEFL-Prep!
h. You're never too busy. You just have a shitty priority.
i. Never give up. This video shows you why.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

*cough* No way *cough*

The sick bug has finally caught me. I have a sore throat 24/7 and it kept me from sleeping since Wednesday... I barely caught some sleep. And to think it doesn't effect anything at all, other than the sick-y throat and the breathing capillaries sucks. I'd switch this with a nonstop sneezing flu at any cost but who would actually want to be this sick?

(No pun intended. Seriously man, jokes aside)

Other than my sickness, everything is fine. My best friends and I made a special group on Line (we're unstoppable now) and this week was super fun... Minus the coughing. I watched Gravity twice and Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs 2, ate too much junk food, bloated my own body to a different kind of level, walked with an av. 2 miles? 3 miles? All that and top it off with the zero laundry I have done... The week's great!

I will spend tomorrow doing laundry (meh) and doing at least one of my movie homework... Aka the best homework ever.

P.S. I finally have my chance to be Jessa.
P.P.S. Fuck, they're taking the formal yearbook's photos in the next two days. That's it. Get me the #1 plastic surgeon in town. We need a quickie.

Saturday, October 12, 2013

What what what what.


Nothing excited is going on my life!!!

All I've been playing online scrabble, watching Girls on repeat, listening to Miley's new album (go ahead... Judge me while you can), browsing about yoga studios and eye makeup tutorials.

Can we just talk about me, graduating in a bit???

Our yearbook theme is movie scenes. Of course I'm hooked with my two bests and we're planning a scene from a TV show... Or a movie. It's still kind of a blur. Our graduation colour is maroon and gold. I'm planning to give away a bit of surprise baskets, I'm thinking of giving away bouquets, I don't know. If there's a site that I'm always on nowadays, it's Pinterest. I'm carefully building my 'graduation' board and it's a secret board. I don't know why I made that board a secret when my dream wedding board is public. Yours truly have a bad case of sorting her priorities.

Like, lip stain or eyelash curler? Wait, don't lash out reasons! This is supposed to be effortless!!

(I think I'm a bit overwhelmed on the graduation party more than the graduation itself)

I thought I'm just going to leave high school carelessly, thinking nothing but OMG FINALLY OUT, YAY???, jumping up and down because "we're freeeee bitches yay we're freeee" but no.

All I could think about is how am I going to stay in touch with these amazing people that made my high school period so damn fun?! Can someone press the pause button? It's going too fast!

I read a cheesy tumblr quote that said "good things must fall apart in order for better ones to exist" or something like that because I don't remember, but that quote is so true. I've lost some things... And god replaced it with better substitutes. Like my earphones.

The thing is, my earphone is not comparable to the friends I have now.

And to see how easy it was, detaching myself from people I used to know best makes it even scarier.

Could you just keep the scrabble, the jokes, the rumours, the cupcakes, the secrets, the bitchy stuff we made of people, the feelings, the songs, the scoldings, the lunchtime, the everything coming?

In the end, what you do, isn't going to be nearly as interesting or important as who you do it with. (JG)

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Click Click Click

I hate to be 'not blogging' because blogging is fun. Even though I just put up words and no pictures. But here's a recap of all the links I'm loving this week.

1. 23 Signs You're Secretly An Introvert. I hate to self-proclaimed myself to things nowadays, but I just have to say that I never feel like I want to be 'productive'. I never bitch about not being productive, and I have low blood pressure. Don't summarise everything, though.

2. Isabel Marant for H&M Lookbook because FINALLY. H&M is available in this lovely country of ours and who doesn't love Isabel Marant?

3. Easy breezy lasagna. I think I'll put this on my next birthday bash.

4. Who doesn't watch Lizzie McGuire?! Come on, it's a cult classic for a child of 2000s. Where are they right now, though? Find out here.

5. La Parisienne. Garance Dore is Scott Schuman's girlfriend. You know, the famous Sartorialist.

7. Marc Jacobs is leaving Louis Vuitton so I'm just paying tribute to how much I used to go crazy when seeing his 2009 it bag

8. Taking a break from hardstyle and house has never been this peaceful.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Rocket high

I think the only disadvantage of being sky high confident is that you can hit the ground pretty quickly.

Well, I guess that happened to me a lot.

So I joined a competition at LBPP-LIA. It's about presentation. I mean... Sure, I speak good english. Nothing to be proud of in this subject. But sometimes anxiety eats me and I started to do something reaaallyyy impulsive. E.g. Talking like I'm being chased by greyhounds. Like, did you get me because that should've not happened because kids, that was crazy fast. So... Yeah. When you're basically judged by not just the ability of speaking English fluently but how well you do it in front of an audience and a set of judge... I'm kinda lol i'm so dead no one would understand me.

So I took deep breaths and started to build my presentation. From powerpoint. #geekchic. I was torn by two subjects, Homeschooling or Young and Inspiring Indonesians. 

I thought that they would be a number of Y&II titles going on, so having a Homeschooling and a controversial title (Why It Won't Work in Indonesia) was a great option for me. After talking with my friends, my Mom, my sidekick, I decided to choose the Y&II, with Stella Lowis as subject. I KNOW. It was so easy. She is so young and inspiring, but being based in Medan, she's not that well-known here. I shot her an email asking about the permission. I mean... If someone used my photo or my creation photo, or talking about me in a formal audience, it would've been nicer if I had known about it. 

She gave a thumb up and I'm just... Through the roof. With Vicetone's Tremble in the background.

I started collaging pictures, made the presentation. It was fun. I made cue cards, with cute fonts. I was nowhere near nervous, though I'm shaking a bit. If there are, like, 50 people joining, I'd be carefree as I can be. If I lost, I could've easily say crap like "There were a lot of people and they're so much better. This is not my time to win." and things. But fate skips my luck and decide that there's only fourteen people joining. Fourteen. That's like, a literal slather of embarassment if you didn't win. My ego was tingling and so did my nerve.

Ughhhh the pressure is so on. Ok. I'm not even thinking that winning is important. What's more important is presenting Ci Stella in the best possible way, and if it's not good enough, it's not good enough.


Being an enthustiastic contestant as always, I re-register first. First, like first first. I thought they will shuffle the numbers BUT NO. I am first.

Ok. Can't show them I'm nervous. You got nothing to lose and it's fineeeeee.

I went my fingers through my hair, reread my cue cards. Checked my shoes, smoothed my dress, putting my power blazer on, and the judges called a very familiar name aka MINE. I took the floor, and though there were glitches... It went fine. The questions I were expecting didn't popped up and they even asked about me. I guess that means I'm presenting Ci Stella fine? I don't know. I just don't know. 

I spent the next hour listening to the others' presentation and just... "Man it's a bunch of talent sitting here and presenting on panel." Almost everyone connected and have their own accents. At that point, my confidence hit rock bottom and I think a mini part of me gave up.

After the first round is completed, I decided to went home to study for midterms aka this week and just wait for the result from Maas.

I can't say I did perfect. I kinda wish I did sooo much better because I know I'm able to do that. Overall, I'm pretty satisfied with the result. It's just another lesson to learn from:)