Thursday, November 21, 2013

Working and staying

Perks of having a swolemate: you have no reason to quit. I've been working out regularly for almost a month now. Working out regularly as in slipping 30 minutes of cardio and 30 minutes of lifting everyday, eating clean, thinking positive and surrounding myself with so much love and support so it would feel less tiring. I am also filling my schedule really tight, with only three free days a week so I wouldn't even have time to think about problems that I should not even have to deal with at the first place. I am definitely better than yesterday... I'm juggling a lot of things at once and I love the feel of it. My feeling that this year is going to end great is actually happening...


I feel like my studying intensity has cranked up a little bit high since I'm maintaining knowledge from both subjects. Each and every day, the desire to stay actually grows and all I've done is nothing but serving it a big amount of care and support. It's not that I don't want to leave... I feel better staying. I think this is the first time I'm sharing this thought out loud, because I've had so many question from others and what ifs from me, along the journey. What if I can't deal with a minus ten degrees? What if it's too scary and it's a handful to handle? What if I missed my Mom? What if I'm not supposed to go there, I mean, dear God Almighty can you show me something? What's more funny is that I factor 'friend' waaayyyy too often during situations, like will it hurt my friendship with A or am I still going to reach B quite easily when on the contrary, my friends are moving to every part of the world. I could just imagine how much fun and experience they will go through, and that my reasons of staying may seem a little bit scared and paranoid, but I actually want to stay...

Only for the first two or three years, though. But I guess that decision is final.

I want me to stay.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Queen of Di-saccharine

I tested my study-tenacity with several songs... I mean, I need to be exceptionally focused when it comes to studying. When I came across Lana, I gave it a try. I mean, it was my jam for most of 2012 for a reason, right? I put National Anthem on and was hooked, I kinda forgot I listen to other songs other than Lana's.

Not until recently that Lana has a major list of the unreleased ones and Queen of Disaster was my song of the week. I kinda can't wait for her next album; she's such a goddess.

This week was super sweet.

I can't remember anything though, but I know it was super sweet.

My best friend celebrated her first monthversary... I got a taste of the new Gingerbread Latte (I can't say that I like it though, holidays are just defined by venti, for kids, toffee nut latte on an early Sunday, catching a read and finishing homework) and to say that I'm ready for next week is actually perfect.

Today is cheat day (I think I'm the only one on the team who's established a cheat day, hahaha. He's so discipline when it comes to fitness and diet) and I finished a single serving cup of Coffee Haagen-Dasz only to be confused on the calories thingy. You know, the label. I'm used to english and 'calories' that the japanese readings confused the hell out of me.

I never thought a cup of ice cream would scare me this much.

P.S. Thank you, Kaskade.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Pride, Ego, Need, and Selfish Ways.

(I just wanted to say thank you)

I hope our path crosses someday. Someday. Just not today, tomorrow, the day after it and so on.