I feel like my studying intensity has cranked up a little bit high since I'm maintaining knowledge from both subjects. Each and every day, the desire to stay actually grows and all I've done is nothing but serving it a big amount of care and support. It's not that I don't want to leave... I feel better staying. I think this is the first time I'm sharing this thought out loud, because I've had so many question from others and what ifs from me, along the journey. What if I can't deal with a minus ten degrees? What if it's too scary and it's a handful to handle? What if I missed my Mom? What if I'm not supposed to go there, I mean, dear God Almighty can you show me something? What's more funny is that I factor 'friend' waaayyyy too often during situations, like will it hurt my friendship with A or am I still going to reach B quite easily when on the contrary, my friends are moving to every part of the world. I could just imagine how much fun and experience they will go through, and that my reasons of staying may seem a little bit scared and paranoid, but I actually want to stay...
Only for the first two or three years, though. But I guess that decision is final.
I want me to stay.