Wordful but typeless

I had sentences running down my brain to my spines to my everything but I lost it all. Maybe I'm just tired.

I finished reading One Day by David Nicholls. Can't wait to seek for the movie and watch it, and die a little more. It's basically my life on 70 gsm, fabric bounded and covered by some pretty cover. And yes, it's a heart breaking ones. The one with love that needs twelve years to realise that it's real. she's the one I've been looking for and for all these years book. It's beautiful. It's filled with satire, comedy, laughs, love, contradictions as complicated as ever and it's just beautiful. I don't know. Some paragraphs (that I'm definitely going to quote somewhere after the madness ends) are just so me, and I see myself as Emma Morley. At first, my life may not work out but soon, I'd live in a city that I really love and every breath will be effortless, every money I spent will be worthy and every liquid I sipped will be yummy. I love rhyming things.

 Because Chelsea, Chelsea is our name.

No fouls! #RESPECT for Insan Kamil and Ummul Quro who was playing that day.

Yeah, it's for you, Biw:p

Class Meeting ends! Ciat!

So... Under conscious I've taken... nearly two thousand photos and I'm so dizzy looking at it now. Ugh, it happens. Going to spend a lot of time in the weekend sorting them out and uploading it to facebook. And I have to upload the graduation photos, too. It's not the exhaustion during the event but the laziness that follows, ya? :)) Anyway I'm sure I'm going to have a sucky sucky holiday because I'm not going anywhere but homeeee and Bogor and working my butt off in order to get even more skinnier. I've lost 5 kgs so far and I still want to lose more! Now I know why I'm such a skinny girl during year 8; losing weight is addicting. And I supposed to be all nervous and stuff because it's the decision time whether I'm a science kid or a social kid. I really have no clue what so ever, because my heart is in social but my brain is in science. I strive for physics and learning chemistry a bit better than I did this year. I like social subjects because it's less tiring but who wants to be not tired? Call me psycho but I love the desperate feeling of wanting to sleep more, and the pleasant butterflies when you finished a really hard thing, or completing a set of insane homeworks that I won't be using in the future because I'm applying to business school. And for sure, I'm really upset that this academic year is ending. I know I have a line up list of reasons why I hate this year so much but a thousand other reason is making me admit that this year is kinda fun too. It's memorable at some point, I met some fabulous friends (gengless, kak fadia, nuf said) and freak geniuses. I joined OSIS, take a lot of pictures, drank so much fruit tea during recess, made more friends, joined EF, quitting ballet. A lot of thing going through my mind, capturing old memories and stupid conversation that I've had. 

And no, I don't want this /academic/ year to end. Forever tenth grade:))

The Two Best Man

So today, Zizi (btw, I got a new nickname for him. ZQ.) told me not to get home so soon, Hilmi too. He didn't say the reason but I'm pretty sure what was it. He dragged Kafie down and did a little intervention about the thing that's been a problem (well, at least for me!) between us. I'm really glad that it's over right now because it's been a distraction for me. I'm not really surprised though, if we have any fights and thingy-s. We three pretty much stubborn and starve for perfection. But Hilmi's fast, Zizi's a tad slow, and me? I usually do it fast but I'm a bit sloppy and clumsy. And we have our 'things', like, I said thingy and yawny-yawny and Zizi's and stuff, Hilmi's indian accent. I considered the three of us working, is my definition of dream team. We fill our heads with the same or similar stuff, and we could work like miracle workers. But we have to tolerate (and if we don't, say it loud) each other in order to achieve the golden goal. Plus, both are considered as older brothers for me, so, you know who's miserable if you're in a quarrel or having an awkward moment and stuff. 

Putih Abu, no more.

This week I've been busy; as usual, but in a very good way with this reason. I've been practicing my ass off to help in the choir for my senior, Incredible Quindecim. In further notice, we've realised that the only thing that keep us burning and singing in a good way, is the meal we had before. That, plus OSIS held an annual event called Dikit Day or Hari Pendidikan dan Kebangkitan Nasional. In Dikit Day, I was the Dandan Pahlawan contest's responsibilities, and my problem is just one; I kept losing my judges due to the very busy day! Of course, we ended up finding some but it would be nicer if I have my old judges back. Also, I was the top three of the Last One Standing. It's a contest of general knowledge, mostly civil stuff. This event was held in Monday, and we wore batik instead of our usual putih abu uniforms.

Gave a personal touch by adding the peace signs.

Me (white shirt, purple skirt)! I didn't have a photo of me in the top three, well, not in the highest quality.

The graduation was held today, on Wednesday, and we didn't get to wear our putih abu (again). Instead, we put on some fancy batiks and a uniform shirt of Paduan Suara Bina Insani, and my favourite part; some heights to give our look a maximum polish. I wore Mom's maduranese batik gentongan and Up! Stella wedges. I brought pink roses today, ten of them, for the loveliest alumna, Fadia Idzna! I'm so happy for her, for reaching the top of the ladder and reaching more dreams, but I'm kind of upset too, realising that she won't be there everyday, they won't be there everyday anymore. I've been in many kinds of school; the public, the private, the semi-public but private school; and in my opinion, the 15th generation is my favourite seniors. I mean, the way they treated their juniors and be a bunch of upstanding members of the community. I want to be like them when I'm in my 11th, 12th grade. 

And everybody knows that the advantage of contributing to this kind of event is that you get a chance to take pictures with the seniors that you've adore for a year; two maximum. Lucky, I have no shame and personally know an alumna, I get to take pictures with my idols of the year, hehehehe. 

Me and kak Fadia. The roses are from me<3 (They drew a lot of question, fyi:p)

Me and kak Dika, the former OSIS leader. He's too awesome, you know.

Me and kak Dias! He's the funniest guy ever, and I feel so lucky he knew me. Hehehehe *major starstruck*

Me and kak Ricky. Kak Ricky got in to Universitas Indonesia, Physics faculty. Go physics!

And this is me and kak Bembi. We are born from the same Mommy in the same way; We're Lady Gaga's little monsters, and we were born this way!

(l-r) Me, Abiw, Hani, Zhafira/Solo, Sarah. We sang our throats off!

Me! I did the make up by myself and helped others too. I braid my hair (cascade braid, I learnt it from here) and put on some orange/pink lip and blush.

I didn't put on my putih abu uniform this week. They won't be putting on their putih abu uniform anymore.

Hello

I personally think that Liam Payne is kinda cute. See, he got eyebrows<3;p

So I just arrived Mom's office, and surfing the net like a boss. I'm smelling like shampoo and bubble gum. I want to have my nails done but I'm so lazy to go to the salon. I want to share my hunting session (and yesterday's meeting pictures) today in Lapangan Sempur. I found a cute guy tho! A skater with fit posture and thick eyebrowsss nyahahahahahahahaha<3<3<3<3

 Maul and Kasinnnnn<3

 Queens of Galau

kak Ajeng, st00pmi and Zizi. 

Inti and Pak Alam's hipster sweater. 

 Baby Abiwski, found her here

Zizi and Api ganteng<3

Maul&Rina's face, I can't help:))

st00pmi is touching bunnies!!! Bunnies<3

Roller Blader Girl! 

So sunny!! Forever burnt.

The family I never had.

Today's event went very well, indeed and I love X4 too for constantly staying on top and winning. I finally know the feeling of being the people backstage; knowing scores, timing the competition, reaching out to friends so they'll come in and watch the show. I am still not over the fact that I am panitia and I am one of the magic helper with pixie dusts that supporting each event to come alive and went well.

As usual, we have our general briefing of all we just do. Some of us are really pleased on how it went, especially the Shalawat competition because every class has put a lot of thought into it. But some of us, just, don't.

There's this one person that always missing; or let's just be up front and dirty; not doing his job well. We've been nothing but confronting him all the time. And truthfully, all of that confronting had no result at all, until we decided to social confront him. We sat in a room and we just blurted out our feelings and thoughts about him.

I remember saying things like, "Semua punya watak. Cuek, siapa yang enggak cuek? (Because I personally thought I am one) Tapi at least kamu bayar tanggung jawab kamu sama OSBI, tau situasi lah, dimana harus cuek, dan dimana harus bertanggung jawab sama tepati janji" Because... Don't you felt a little bit betrayed when you're all over the place, uncomfortably sweating from wearing the alma mater jacket, timing the competition, and some dudes is having fun playing a game of football? And the chills I got from reading offending status updates, I just can't take it anymore; half of OSBI too. So some of us try to explained and we apologize, everybody apologize. But something is hanging for me, as he didn't give any explanation.

Here's the thing. One of the advantage of being in an organization is being loved by many and loving many. I don't mean like, everybody is having romantic relationships with everybody but more as unity, as a family, as the place you run to when you have nowhere to go. The people you seek when you're lost, the affection you find when you're low. Having people with the same goal and the destination around you, makes it so much easier than being alone in the sea of question marks. Truly I found intense affection in OSBI, because I found new bestfriends, new picture-buddy, new coffee-mates. And I just want you to know that I'm somewhat in your shoes, and I found another missing puzzle piece from OSBI. Don't reject, don't hide anything, because in unity we're great listeners and if you got a story, tell us. Who knows, the answers are just right in the corner and it will be so much easier for you to enjoy life and everything surrounding you.

I just want you to know that we will accept you in any shapes you're in, and any explanation you're giving will be taken in seriously. Rejecting us and neglecting your responsibility will not help and sometimes just the act of sharing a painful thing can relieve some of the pain.

OSBI 11/12 is one of family I never had. Not for what it looks, but for what it gave me.

Free days, at last.

So... the 6th until the 9th, 10th and 11th graders in my school are dismissed from school for good, because the 12th graders is having their try outs of the national examination. Freaky, I'll say. I know I just done that a year ago, but in two years, that daunting things will come again to haunt me. Freaky.

In this days, I decided to pack up my schedule pretty tight. At the 6th, I went to school for student council meeting; we're going to have our second event (first was classmeeting), and went to the gym until 3pm. I got home and watched the second season of 'The Nanny'. I went to bed early (as usual).

7th. I went to school to finish up some homeworks with Hilmi, Rina, Abiw, and other anak OSIS like Maul, Sasa Ega, Asti, Oka, plus Alif and Rayhan (but they didn't joined us for discussion so...). Kamal was there but he went everywhere. After that I didn't go to the gym, but I watched America's Next Top Model cycle 4; I know, way back in Naima's season. I love the fact Naima won, because she's been so amazing since day one!:p

Oh, I received a bad news from my friend, her mother passed away because of the sickness she had been into. Dhea, please be strong as ever, we're here to give endless support to you.

8th; today. I supposed to go to Dhea's mom funeral but I fell asleep to soon the night before (as usual) so I don't know the schedule and everything. I feel so stupid for sleeping a lot. At 12pm we went to Botanical Garden to find some foreigners and we found two! Both of them are scientist from Switzerland and I'm really grateful to God because, the foreigners cannot be better than these two.

9th. Tomorrow. I'm still looking forward to it.

Btw, my holiday book is Kafka's The Metamorphosis and Winna Efendi's Unforgettable. I read Unforgettable quite thoroughly because the style of writing is very new for me! There's no quote unquote and no passive voice. It's a great experience to read something new, something with twisty dialog and giving so much love and thought again for reading.

P.S. I added a new song in the playlist; give it a listen!:)